A's Happiness Blogs

           This past week has been difficult. I have seen too many tears than I like to count come from people that I love and I felt hopeless. I felt like I needed to protect them from the pain that they was feeling. I tried my best to keep a brave face but found myself broken. Its hard to try to help people when you feel down and out your self. I did not know how to handle it. I found my self angry. It is hard to do anything when you get to that point. I wanted to hurt the individuals hurting my loves ones and no matter what people was telling me, I wanted to lash out. I wanted to be as ugly and as nasty as they was being. I did not care if I stepped out of who I was just for a brief period in time, because I wanted them to feel the hurt and the pain that they was dishing out to people around me. In my mind, that would have made me feel better, but in reality it would not. I would have probably felt worse about the situation. But we have a God t...

               They say "Amanda, you talk a lot about dreams that  you have and the things that you are wanting to do in your life. Why is that so important for you to talk to others about their dreams? Dreams are not real, and they are just a waste of peoples time." And honestly, I had to think about that. Is what they saying true? Is it a waste of time? Why is it so important to me to tell others about perusing their dreams and to tell them little  about mine?      Well the answer is simple. I have always had dreams. I have been a "dreamer" for as long as I can remember. There have been so many things that I could see my self doing for so long and the list is impressive. But even though I have had these dreams for myself   and I have always kept my dreams in the back of my head. I never really shared my dreams with others, for fear of them judging me.  For years, I hid my dreams away like a ...