A's Happiness Blogs

There are times in our lives where we are going to have to deal with the loss of someone. It is hard, and no one wants to deal with it, but one way  or another we have to. See, I have had many people in my life who passed away, but recently I had someone who passed away that was close to me. This hit differently, because of who she was to me. She was my mother. One of the most Godly women I knew, even at the end of her life.  I found myself with a mix of emotions that I did not know how to deal with. I completely shut down from family, friends, my kids and my husband. I even shut down from doing what God has told me to do.  I quit writing, and I even quit seeking God's face. I was barely reading my Bible, and praying, because I was that sad. I was in my feelings  and I did not know how to deal with them.  I still have my days where I do not know how to express how I am feeling, but God is showing me how to deal with grief. See, going through this process, and it...

You know, the past week has been one of the most trying times for me and my family. We had to go through the most emotional weeks that we have ever had. To be honest, I thought I was going to go insane for a while. I wanted to pray, but I found myself in a state of not knowing what to pray, or even how to pray for the situation.   It was hard. I called one of the leaders of the women Bible study group that I attend, and she prayed over me. That gave me peace, but I was still on edge about what I was going through. I had a very hard time expressing my feelings. I kept them inside because I honestly didn't know how to feel.  But then the Lord had to show me something. He had to show me who he was. I mean, sure I know who God is, and I know what he can do in certain situations.  I know what the bible says about having faith and I have done a lot of blogs and videos on having faith that I should not have a problem with anything.  But when God puts you in a position ...