“I want
to do this…. But I don’t know!!! I want to do that…. But I don’t know!”
This has
been me for the past few weeks. I have been going back and forth on things that
I know in my heart that I need to be doing, but I find myself second guessing
myself.
It almost
seems that I do not have the faith in God that I say that I have.
Questioning
my Life
It’s like
I am questioning everything thing that he has been telling me to do in my life.
Weather it because I am scared to do it, or it is just the fact that I do not
think I know how to do it, I find myself in the same boat repeatedly.
It seems like every time I take two steps
forward, I find myself taking five steps back. It’s like I am being repetitive.
But I am learning with every passing day, that I am looking in the wrong place
for the answers that I need out of life.
You may
feel like I am being too honest with this blog, but I just want to help others
and show that I am fighting the same fight that others may be fighting in their
lives.
Now, as I
have been trying figure out things in my life, I started to complain. It was
not nothing too serious, but I was complaining, a lot. The one thing that I
said I did not want to do. That is what I found myself doing.
I found something
wrong in everything that I was trying to do for my life.
“I am not
perfect!”
“How can I
work for God? I do not feel like I am ready!”
I have so many “how am I going to do this and
that” questions in my life I was getting frustrated. I started searching for
the answers in the wrong places. I thought I could talk to my sister about it,
and I thought I could talk to my husband about it, but I realized that they
could not help me with what I was feeling.
Seeking
God for Answers
True, they
can give me advice on what they feel like I should be doing, and they can even give
me scripture, but they cannot help me the way I needed to be helped. The kind
of help I needed was a little deeper than just talking to them.
When I
realized the help I needed was only going to be giving to me by God himself, I
felt foolish.
I had been looking all over for someone to
give me the answers that I was seeking, and it was in me the whole time.
See, in
Matthew 6:33 it says, “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his
righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you” (KJV)
Even
though my family very well could give me good advice, I needed to seek God on
some things myself. God and answer the questions that I may have better than
any man can. When I took a step back and I sought God on my own, he showed me
what I needed to do and I felt better, because my father in heaven let me know
what I needed to do.
Studying
his Word
As Christians,
sometimes we go to the wrong place to get the answers that we need for the questions
that we have burning on the inside of us. Often, the answers are two places.
First in
the word of God.
In 2
Timothy 2:15 it says to “Study to shew thyself approve unto God, a
workman that needed not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.”
We
must get into God’s word, because all of the answers that we need are in the
Bible. God has giving us a great resource in the Bible for all of the things
that we may be going through in life and how to handle every situation.
It is up to us to get in the word of God and
study it so we will be able to use it in our life.
Praying
The second
way is to go to God directly, as I stated earlier. We need to pray more and ask
God how to handle the difficult things in our lives. When we have that
relationship with God, we can go to him, and he will give us the answers that
we need. Now some answers are some we may not want to hear, but God is a
gracious God, and he will never steer us in the wrong direction.
Bottom
line, God is who we need to go to when we have questions and need spiritual
answers. He knows what we need when we need it. I pray that this blog helps you
with your journey with God.
Be
Blessed.