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New Meaning of my Wedding Vows.

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May 17, 2007 was my wedding day. And though parts of it were not a happy time, when I saw my husband standing at the alter waiting on me on that Thursday night, I was so happy. I was starting my life with this person that I dated for three years.   I was excited to start my journey as his wife, but I had no clue what I was getting my self into.   When I got married, I had this illusion of something I say in the movies. I thought it was going to be all fun and games. We were going to love each other, and we were going to have a happy life and we were not going to have to go through anything.     But that is a different topic for another time.  When we got married, we had to say our wedding vows in front of everyone in the church.     We stood and we said those vows proudly. In front of every one that was there and God, we said those vows.    But who take their wedding vows seriously?    For me, August 2023 those vows took o...

Dealing with Grief

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There are times in our lives where we are going to have to deal with the loss of someone. It is hard, and no one wants to deal with it, but one way  or another we have to. See, I have had many people in my life who passed away, but recently I had someone who passed away that was close to me. This hit differently, because of who she was to me. She was my mother. One of the most Godly women I knew, even at the end of her life.  I found myself with a mix of emotions that I did not know how to deal with. I completely shut down from family, friends, my kids and my husband. I even shut down from doing what God has told me to do.  I quit writing, and I even quit seeking God's face. I was barely reading my Bible, and praying, because I was that sad. I was in my feelings  and I did not know how to deal with them.  I still have my days where I do not know how to express how I am feeling, but God is showing me how to deal with grief. See, going through this process, and it...

Standing up for Yourself

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Standing Up for Yourself!  So in my last blog, I talked about having a boldness for God. That is so important when it comes to us being chirstians. We need to be able to stand boldly for God when things are not right.  But one thing that I realized, the hard way, was how hard it is to have boldness when it comes to oneself. Now I am not saying that this is every Christian man or woman, but I have noticed that sometimes it is hard for others to stand up for themselves. I have struggled with that for years. I know in the past when I stood up for myself,  I would get so mad and angry and I was not acting Godly at all. I would curse and just act like I was just  a crazy person.   This happened when I was pregnant with my oldest son Donovan. I had a boss who was very nasty and very ugly. One day I did not have a ride to work because my husband was stuck at work and could not get off, ( he sold cars at the time). Well I called up to my job to let them know what w...

Having Peace in your life.

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Having Peace in your Life Going through this life, we find ourselves having good days and bad days. It seems like sometimes we find ourselves having more bad days than good.   It can be frustrating because it seems like noting seem to be going the way it should be going. We find ourselves stressed out because nothing seems to be going out way. We try everything we can to try to be happy, but it never seems to work out in our favor.    But the beauty of being a child of God, is the peace that he gives us to be able to bear anything that the enemy seems to throw our way.    Philippians 4:7- “And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and mind through Christ Jesus.” (KJV)   I love this verse.  This verse means so much to me. When you think about the peace of God! How wonderful it feels to have that kind of peace.  See, when you have the peace of God which passeth all understanding, you find yourself thinking on...

Gaining Strength From my Covid 19 experience.

 Gaining Strength         I have gone through a lot of things in my life. Some things are good, and I am happy to share, but some things are embarrassing, and I wish I never put myself in that situation. This week, I was face with scary health issues that I was not expecting to deal with. This week, I found out that I had covid-19. When I found out I had it, I did not know what to do, but I am learning that God puts us in certain situations to show us his mighty strength and to let us know he is who we need to lean on. Dealing with having covid- 19 was one of the hardest things that I have done. So, I found out by chance last week that I had covid. I went to work last Tuesday feeling ok, I just had some issues with my breathing. I already have asthma, so I thought I just needed a simple breathing treatment and I would feel so much better. So, after work, I went to the emergency room at the hospital. I was getting upset because I felt like it took me forev...