A's Happiness Blogs

“ I want to do this…. But I don’t know!!! I want to do that…. But I don’t know!”   This has been me for the past few weeks. I have been going back and forth on things that I know in my heart that I need to be doing, but I find myself second guessing myself.   It almost seems that I do not have the faith in God that I say that I have.   Questioning my Life   It’s like I am questioning everything thing that he has been telling me to do in my life. Weather it because I am scared to do it, or it is just the fact that I do not think I know how to do it, I find myself in the same boat repeatedly.     It seems like every time I take two steps forward, I find myself taking five steps back. It’s like I am being repetitive. But I am learning with every passing day, that I am looking in the wrong place for the answers that I need out of life.   You may feel like I am being too honest with this blog, but I just want to help others and show ...

                                                                      Purpose for Your Life This is the second time I have written this blog. The first time, I sat down, typed out my though and I thought I was finished with it.  It took me over a week to write and I felt like I was at a standstill, because I kept changing it. Just as soon as I thought I was done with it and was ready to post it, I lost it because I did not know what I was doing with my new computer. I got discouraged and upset and I wanted to give up. But I knew I wanted to get this blog written and I refuse to let anything stop me.  It has been a while since I posted a blog. About two months to be exact. I have been trying to sit at my computer and figure out just what it is that I want to post. Not just want to post but...

 Gaining Strength         I have gone through a lot of things in my life. Some things are good, and I am happy to share, but some things are embarrassing, and I wish I never put myself in that situation. This week, I was face with scary health issues that I was not expecting to deal with. This week, I found out that I had covid-19. When I found out I had it, I did not know what to do, but I am learning that God puts us in certain situations to show us his mighty strength and to let us know he is who we need to lean on. Dealing with having covid- 19 was one of the hardest things that I have done. So, I found out by chance last week that I had covid. I went to work last Tuesday feeling ok, I just had some issues with my breathing. I already have asthma, so I thought I just needed a simple breathing treatment and I would feel so much better. So, after work, I went to the emergency room at the hospital. I was getting upset because I felt like it took me forev...

This is my first blog of the new year and a lot of things is on my heart and in my mind to blog about, but where do I begin in the year 2021. As I sit here, trying to figure out what I want to write for my blog a lot of things come to mind. Should I talk about my day? Should I give them a story time? Or should I start out with how the first few days of 2021 has been hard for me? What is it that I need to blog about that would make it interesting for my readers to read about? But then I realized the reason I started this blog in the first place. I want to be a blessing to others. For the longest time I know that there was a calling on my life. I ran from it for so long because I did not understand what it was that I was actually called to do. But then God showed me what He had for me to do. He wanted me to be an inspiration to others. I always wanted to be one of the people that God uses to help the children of God.   I want to encourage people who may not have someone in their li...

           This past week has been difficult. I have seen too many tears than I like to count come from people that I love and I felt hopeless. I felt like I needed to protect them from the pain that they was feeling. I tried my best to keep a brave face but found myself broken. Its hard to try to help people when you feel down and out your self. I did not know how to handle it. I found my self angry. It is hard to do anything when you get to that point. I wanted to hurt the individuals hurting my loves ones and no matter what people was telling me, I wanted to lash out. I wanted to be as ugly and as nasty as they was being. I did not care if I stepped out of who I was just for a brief period in time, because I wanted them to feel the hurt and the pain that they was dishing out to people around me. In my mind, that would have made me feel better, but in reality it would not. I would have probably felt worse about the situation. But we have a God t...

               They say "Amanda, you talk a lot about dreams that  you have and the things that you are wanting to do in your life. Why is that so important for you to talk to others about their dreams? Dreams are not real, and they are just a waste of peoples time." And honestly, I had to think about that. Is what they saying true? Is it a waste of time? Why is it so important to me to tell others about perusing their dreams and to tell them little  about mine?      Well the answer is simple. I have always had dreams. I have been a "dreamer" for as long as I can remember. There have been so many things that I could see my self doing for so long and the list is impressive. But even though I have had these dreams for myself   and I have always kept my dreams in the back of my head. I never really shared my dreams with others, for fear of them judging me.  For years, I hid my dreams away like a ...